Tuesday, November 22, 2005

Jeans

I once had a pair of jeans that I liked a lot. A birthday present from some friends that I precious a lot two years ago. Now, this pair of jeans had become old and broken. It was nice to see but not nice to wear anymore. Coincidentally, the situation of the jeans is similar to my friendship with these friends. Those friends were once I precious a lot and now......Our relationship is same as the pair of jeans, seems normal and nice to others yet we are no longer friends or should I say just acquaintances.The time when the jeans were broken, it was exactly the time when our friendship faded. I thought I really know them well yet sometimes they seem to be strangers to me. But things came clearer to me when I was not with them. Some unrevealed characters when we were close. Maybe my characters are not compatible with theirs. So close yet so far......That jeans, I tried to wear it no matter how broken it was and even tried to sewed it back when it was torn. But the jeans were getting worse and worse. No matter how hard I tried, it would still be torn. It was exactly the same in our friendship. No matter how hard I tried to fit in, how hard I tried to explain the misunderstandings, things would be worsen. The damages had been done to both the jeans and our friendships.
This pair of jeans is kept in my cupboard now. I no longer wearing it......I just want to keep it as my memory, just like how I want to keep all the sweet or sour moments during that friendship. The moment I stop wearing the jeans, it is the time when I'm trying to let go and get over the sorrows. Things change and nothing can be done about it. This is the nature of life. Nothing is forever and that is why we have to appreciate what we possess in the present because we will never know when we will lose it.
I bought a new jeans just like I'm getting a new life now. I started to like this newly-bought-jeans and so is my new life.