我要记得！！！

今天刚刚看了一集『肥田』，突然之间感觉到失去记忆是很恐怖的事。现今科技发达，所有的资料都能备份，储存量不够，能扩张记忆卡，但是是否有人想过，人的记忆是否能备份呢？假如有一天，很不幸地失去记忆，那不是一件很悲惨的事吗？忘记了我和每一个人的关系，的感觉，的回忆，相处的悲与乐，酸与苦，感觉对每一个人都很陌生，想起来都有一点可怕了。忘记了仇恨与反感固然是好，但是失去了生命中种种的快乐与美好的点点滴滴，是多么的可悲啊！我不想忘记了我和她，和他，和你们是怎么的相逢、相识和相知。我决定要写下这一切！！！

谢谢你曾经在我生命中走过。。。

过了几天身心疲累的日子，总算有好日子过了。其实也很感谢一个人，一个很支持我，不断鼓励我，劝我不要放弃，叮咛我定要坚持下去的人。这一个也是一个很值得我敬佩的人。其实我已经开始有一点模糊我是怎么样认识她了。。。哈哈哈！！友情就是在这不知不觉中慢慢地成长，感觉就好像认识很久很久的朋友。和她很谈得来，也是其中一个我可以毫无保留地述说我心底话的人，感觉真的很棒！！没了她，日子该会蛮难过吧！无论将来会是怎么样，真的很感谢她曾经在我的生命中写下了精彩的一页，留下了很深刻的记忆，不过我当然希望我们的友谊能够“步步高升”（就是你啦！！！）。谢谢你！！！

我终于哭了。。。

这两天总是提不起劲，郁郁寡欢，憋了这么久，终于哭出来了。这几天真的真的很累，累的每天回家都很快睡着。总觉得自己很无助，很无能，少少东西都做不好。有一次，我真的做到哭出来了，看着密密麻麻的数目字在电脑的荧幕里，只知道眼泪不听使唤的流出来，就好像小时候，功课做不完，害怕隔天被老师罚的感觉。很担心被人看到，唯有赶快檫了檫眼泪，回家去了。每个都说：你已经干得不错了，但是我却逐渐的忘记这真真的目的了。 我彻底令你们失望了，因为我真的没做好，我好像辜负了你们的期望，白费了自己的心机，浪费了机会。其实上天也对我不薄，虽没有事半功倍，也不至于事倍功半。或许是时候我去开辟另一个新天地。我真的很想开心。。。希望我能再一次找到开心的泉源。。。。祝福我吧，朋友。

超级cheap 精

最近终于见识到了一个人间超级贱男人，又怕事、不负责任、做事畏首畏尾、人前一个样、人后扮好人，简直就是超级cheap 精。我真的很后悔我认识这样一个人。起初还不怎么样，可是日久见人心，真面目终于出现了！！！我真的是大开眼界。数起来，也有七宗罪：
（一） 胆小怕事，做事畏首畏尾，没有责任心。从来不见得敢担戴任何责任，简直就是不负责任。真的怀疑他的肩膀是否A字形的，卸膊能力一流。
（二） 欺善怕恶，只会欺负新人，鄙视他！！！
（三） 做事拖泥带水，劳师动众，简直就是浪费人家的时间，伤财劳民，不知所谓。一件小事，都要全部人帮他做，结果只有别人做，自己在讲电话，扮忙，废人一个！
（四） 反应迟钝，不会话头醒尾，总要人重复百遍，还不明白，不知道是真傻还是假痴，可是最衰还要不懂装懂。
（五） 说话永远都是吞吞吐吐，说了老半天，还没说到重点，说了等于没说，以为带笑就能传达讯息，白痴一个！
（六） 假仁假义，只会见人说人话，见鬼说鬼话，但是看来是讲鬼话居多。
（七） 好色，满脑子都是歪念，简直就是死变态一名。


根本简直是伪君子，我鄙视你
幸好我宽宏大量，
我要从新振作。

Life is a routine?

Feeling depressed and moodless lately...dunno the exact reason though...Just that this feeling was getting more and more obvious and serious. Going to work is just like a routine thing for me. Go to work for the sake of going to work. It's so meaningless.most probably is because I really hate this job, just the repeatition of work, furthermore, it's something that I hated since studies life. I hated the feeling that I don't have the desire and passion to work. This is the worst part of it when one is working.

Even though I faced problems in my work, but I still don't have the passion to solve them. I'm jealous of those who are willing to thnk in order to solve the issues in work but I just felt lazy, not even wanna do the thinking...What's this? This is not working....I just work for the sake of getting my pay cheque at the end of the month. I felt this is an dishonour to my soul and dignity...What am I doing here? I just can't find myself, I think I'm lossing me....Sigh....

认识她，她，她，她和她

第一次见到她，给了我一个很深刻的印象。每一次望向她，从她的眼神中都会感受到一种很凌厉的气势，一种不寒而栗的感觉。总觉得她的眼神总带有一丝丝的杀气再加一点点的高傲，让我不由自主地感到畏惧。可是当我与她相处久了，大概三个月吧，觉得她的人跟她外表所呈现的感觉完全相反。她是一个蛮好玩的人。现在她给我的感觉，完完全全与先前的相反：风趣幽默，但是我还是对她有一点点的敬畏。

她，我完全忘了她是何时开始跟我说话，她总是很忙，来也匆匆去也匆匆。我想应该是我开始工作的第三或是第四天吧，在PO 房吧。。。我也忘了她的名字，只知道她是我的上头，也不是很敢跟她说太多。。。哈哈。她给我的感觉是：负责、勤劳、紧张 、很关心与照顾他人和有一点神经质。总觉得她的肩上扛着很重的责任，有点过度操心他人以致影响自己的情绪。。。无论如何，这些都是令我对她很钦佩的优点。她的的确确是一个让我佩服与可以让我坦然告诉她我心底的感受的朋友,也是一个蛮具挑战性的联邦赛车手，整天照着我。。。哈哈哈！！！

她，应该是我第一个认识的她吧。。。第一感觉是，她很酷，所以当我和她一起做事时，会有一丝丝的担忧，但幸好事情并非我所想。。。好彩！！她给我的感觉是其实是一个可以与你滔滔不绝，无所不谈的人，一个很好玩的人，应该说是一个常蒲的人。。。希望没说得太夸张吧。。。不然我又要被延长了。。。

她，我也忘了何时开始和她说话，应该是第二天吧。。。刚开始她不太说话，但是慢慢地却越说越多。她总是说是我带坏她。。。让她变得如此多话。。。哈哈，我反而认为她本性如此，只是被我慢慢发掘出来罢了，与我并没有直接关系。她常对我说：要在适合的时候说不！！！

她，反而是最后才认识。认识她后，才知道她比我还小，真的有点看不出来。她和我是在同一个月份出生，还是差不远呢，属同一个星座，所以觉得有一点亲切感。该怎样形容她呢？人肉出油机吧，哈哈。。。她也是一个蛮幽默的人，常会因一点小笑话而笑个不停。。。

First Day At Work

Today is 29th of May 2006....a typical working day for those who are working and hereby is my first day at work in a Japanese company. I got the offer as a R&D engineer in the adhesive tape research and development department.

My first impression of this company was there were a lot of people very busy with a lot of stuffs. No one was in the office by the time I reached the NMM building.

The worst part during my first day was I was needed to do OT. There was a basic study for all the R&D engineers in my department where some knowlegde and information regarding the polymers and adhesive that we were exposed to everyday. My working hour was extended for 2 hours and suring the basic study, I strongly regretted to have chosen this as my job and I was thinking: I wanna go home, I wanna go home all the while....Kanasai company!!! I hated polymerization ever since my studies life. Sigh...finally, I got to go back home after 2 hours of overtime....

願我可以學會放低你

一首令我有共鸣的歌，代表我内心深处的某一种感觉， 希望我真的能忘记。。。。

曲：徐偉賢詞：黃偉文編：何秉舜@goomusic/英師傅
任我出去任我飛
遊蕩兩日又重踏這地
沒有牽掛就會死
難道我靈魂被你收起
自己都管不了自己
太多錯誤經已因你起
我都知　再找你
連幸福都要放棄

其實你有多好　到別處碰不到
至令我重返這條路
臨近晚節不保　卻行到這一步
難道天空海闊再無芳草

＊願我可以學會放低你　
就讓我重頭來過物色新知已　
望著你的臉如山水一般優美　
要走的我　總企在原地　

願我可以絕到踢走你　
但是我如何能拒絕張開的臂　
自問我可以贏你　但喜歡輸給你　
猶像你親於我自己　
我怎可以　一刀切下來　親手　傷你

＊其實你有多好　到別處碰不到
美麗到危險的程度
臨近晚節不保　卻行到這一步
沿路的山丘已化成焦土
REPEAT＊
我只可以　將心割下來　親手　給你

My KKA coursemates

Finally graduated loh...I've been with my coursemates for 4 years and I've never regreted to study this course..Ei, seems not relevant lah..but nevermind lah. There are currently 29 chinese coursemates. Ei, I should put it in past tense lah. Haha....Let me see, who should I start with.ermm...name written not following any ranking ..(排名不分先后)
Me - waiyeen (just a normal student in the class, not outstanding at all but never ponteng a class ever: 100 % attendance...hehe)
shuiyu - sweeyee (both fishes (kam fong yu) stay together)
gougou - waifen (very faithful to her bf...tomy kiu, wind blow oso wont tertanggal. Expected to be the 1st to get married.
vinci - wyntse (my ex-roomate, very cute and sweet, oso always make fun of her name: a shoe shop)
dailou - yong chuin (consider the most handsome guy in my batch; admire by most of the juniors)
kam fong yu - kim fong (always blur blur 1....act very slow)
ah hong - pui kong (quiet in class, very good in drinking)
iwah - ai hwa (my ex-roomate oso, tot I heard her name wrongly the 1st time I met her, wondering y her name is a brand for hi-fi)

andrew - very steady guy; always seems calm in everything.

siaw ting - jacklyn (a very hardworking sibu gal....always wanted to try the kampua mee from her hometown.)

shiang yan - (always thinks herself being very cute.for me, ermm...no comment...)

yen fun - (always very kan cheong in her study...haha)

suat bee - (also known as ah bee; very friendly gal from klang....she can make very delicious yao yao ice...)

chickie - pauline ( or normally pronounce as pao lin by most of the lecturers, very noisy in class, laugh very loud, was predicted to marry a chicken rice seller in ming fatt...)

ah liu - fui yin (also know as birdie due to the trip to kuala selangor; one of the top scorer in class)
mui jun - (a gal from kuching and best fren of ah bee)
ah wah - (always says his english not good but if it's really so, nobody in the world speaks broken english loh!!!)
su jun - (also known as chemi car;
uncle yip - (also known as tio in spanish
wei yee - (always says he's taller than ah kuen especially during pictures taking time)
ah boon - (the most muscular guy in my class, always goes for exercises and gym)
ah fai - (a yellow lover)
ah kuen - (ipoh leng lui, so called la....haha)
arthur - (only chinese sabahan guy in my class, quite humourous)
aini - (top scorer in the class.....)
chiou moi - (very smart and intelligent gal....)
li ping - (always sits in front of the lecture....)
shin tien - (i tot she was mixed chinese the 1st time I met her)
lee keng - (the eldest gal in my class as she was borne on 2nd of January...sometimes get confused of her sister and her....embarassing)

可惜他有女朋友

作曲：方樹樑@好人有限
填詞：黃偉文
他都不算很有趣
為何我遇見別人都悶極入睡
碰見他　總是自然　談下去
讓人幻想可以後　談下去　結合成伴侶
＊可惜他有愛侶　還可怎麼爭取
投契極 得不到世人的允許
常常望著　別人幸福　令我更唏噓
難道世界上美男　全部被捕
漏網的跑到哪裡　男生稍一可取
全已是　某君的夫婿或愛侶
仍然像我的　未嫁的　又愛得起誰
唯一符合理想的得七歲＊
他真的有點似我
旁人要是太悶時安靜地就坐
看見他今夜突然　圍著我
話題像剪不斷地　圍著我　
我又怕什麼
REPEAT＊＊
然而像我的　未嫁的　又會分到誰
誰想凡是舞會都單身去

喜歡喜歡你

喜歡你 純屬想喜歡你
我不祈求 完全的得到你
得到你 還是得不到你
我都珍惜獨享這齣戲 有個角色我做 儘量入戲
喜歡你 投入的喜歡你
借點題材 逗自己的歡喜
不知道 如若不喜歡你
我的無聊日子怎處理 有個暗戀對象 亦是運氣
#不必捉緊誰 渡蜜月期
喜歡的是覺得喜歡你 棉花糖口中溶掉
得我明白那滋味 可不可收成 並沒預期
精彩的是我怎喜歡你 曾多麽多麽甜蜜地 偷看著你
不必理 誰亦都不必理 這不求人 共自己的嬉戲
聽講過 如若很喜歡你
腦袋其時亦釋出分泌 世界縱使破落 但內在美
Repeat #
我有我愛 不必講給你知
好不好 上帝都不必理
像一種私家娛樂 動情原是我專利
愛到最尾 即使將軍無棋
未盡是 白費心機 在當中得到娛樂 又怎會恨你
喜歡你 純屬想喜歡你
我不祈求 完全的得到你有個暗戀對象
亦總算運氣

INSTRUCTION FOR LIFES

1. Take into account that great love and great achievements involve great risks.
2. When you lose, don’t lose the lesson.
3. Follow the three R’s”
   Respect for self;
   Respect for other’s, and
   Responsibilities for all your actions
4. Remember that not getting what you want is sometimes a wonderful stroke of luck.
5. Learn the rules so that you know how to break them properly.
6. Don’t let a little dispute injures a great relationship.
7. When you realize you’ve made a mistake, take immediate steps to correct it.
8. Spend some time alone everyday.
9. Open arms to change, but don’t let go of your values.
10. Remember that silence is sometimes the best answer.
11. Live a good, honorable life. Then when you get older and think back, you’ll be able to enjoy it a second time.
12. A loving atmosphere in your home is a foundation for your life.
13. In disagreements with loved ones, deal only with the current situation. Don’t bring up the past.
14. Share your knowledge. It’s a way to achieve immortality.
15. Be gentle with the earth.
16. Once a year, go some place you’ve never been before.
17. Remember that the best relationship is the one in which your love for each other exceeds your need for each other.
18. Judge your success by what you had to give up in order to get it.
19. Approach love and cooking with reckless abandon.

鄭中基-真摯

Dedicating this song to all of the Chemical and Environmental Engineering Students (KKA, UPM), Class of 2002

還記得最後一次離別在無情城市

我們都強忍著淚濕

默默的欲言又止背影消失

思念悄悄開始

從前的懵懂幼稚現在的相惜相知

不變的是心的真摯

歡樂與悲傷的事

永遠不會流逝

只有你們才知

有時候 會有軟弱和無助

有朋友我不孤獨 WO HO HO

朋友是一生一世 互相扶持

我們用毫不保留的方式

我們的關懷永遠不停止 天涯咫尺

唯獨真情是真實 WO HO HO

朋友是一生一世 到老到醜 屬於我們的故事

Last lecture day

Thursday, 5th of April 2006. Morning lecture is SOLID WASTE ENGINEERING (KKA 4104). Basically, nothing much interesting about this lecture. It was as boring as usual. Then later at 11am, here came the last and irritating lecture, SAFETY AND RISK ASSESSMENT. The worst nightmare of all, it was the time when the test 2 results were given back to all of us. We were so nervous and I am the first one to take my result. I was keeping my finger cross for not to get a terrible result and luckily I maintained as test 1. What a relief!!!But his marking for our test was remarkably incredible. No standard at all...I really don't know how to describe him. Descriptions for him and his attitude is really beyond my vocabulary..

After class, some of us went for photo shoting. It was incredibly nice and enjoyable. We took pictures everywhere in the faculty. But unfortunately, we were not able to take in the main campus due to heavy rains and thunders...Nevermind, we'll go another time.

2nd Last Lecture Day

04-04-2006 (Wednesday). My second last lecture day in uni. Today lectures are 1-hour INDUSTRIAL SAFETY AND HEALTH and 2-hour SAFETY AND RISK ASSESSMENT. The INDUSTRIAL SAFETY AND HEALTH lecture started at 2pm. Today is the last lecture for this subject. Professor Ilicali entered the lecturer hall without any slide but with only a paper bag. He said today will not be any lecture and started talking about Professor Yunus Cengel. He told us he was once having Porfessor Cengel as his collegue in an university in Turkey. He said Professor Cengel once had a habit of giving out candies or chocolates to the students at the last lecture and now he would like to follow his habit today. We were so happy and clapped. Then he started giving out chocolates to all of us, one by one. Then something unexpected happened when he reached my row. When he passed the chocolates to us, he said to me:" I would never forget your laughing face". I was so shocked. Maybe I often talked and laughed in his lectures.Hahaha. After the chocolates giving, we asked him to take a photo with as memory. Hereby, thank you Profesor and you did earn my respects...

After that, here came our 2-hour lecture suffering lecture on Risk assessment. It was the most irritating lecture in this last semester. I personally felt that being in this lecture has put myself in a risk of to be flunk in this course. I don't seem to be able to find anyone who like this course nor the lecturer-our ''chartered engineer, Sa lao shi.'' Sigh...I really have no comment on him. Doesn't know how to operate the projector, always didn't save the documents after editing, repeating all the slides he taught without realizing it, always mumbling his lectures and end up no one understand what he was talking, always trying to be sarcastic and humorous and in the end irritating all of us...Ei, still did make some comment on him unrealizing. Really hated his class and doesn't hope to end my university lectures in his class but what to do...Damn it!!!

Let's forget about that for now as all of us were going to have a gathering before we graduate. We were going to have a dinner in Station 1 Cafe in Mines. It was a very high attendance gathering as about 26 of us attended it. It was so great and wonderful to gather around and chit-chating. The food was okay but the service was terrible. We waited so long for all the food to be served. Then we headed for movies after that. Some of us watched 'Inside Man' while some went for 'Ice Aged 2'. We were having a great time....I'll always remember this moment..that's why I wanna keep a post about it in my blog...

My Last Study Week in Uni

Monday, week 14 according to my uni calendar (3rd of April, 2006). Today is the first day in my last study week in uni. Time flies as all my coursemates are concentrating in accomplishing our final year thesis. I think we don't really realize that our 4-year university life is goin to end soon. Being a freshman in university was just like yesterday. I really wanna really enjoy these final 3 days where I will be having my last lectures in the faculty. Today lecture is INDUSTRIAL SAFETY AND HEALTH. As usual, our Turkish lecturer, Professor Coskan Ilicali comes into the lecture hall at about 2.05 pm. He is a very nice lecturer, always punctual on time and handle his lectures seriously. Although he's Turkish, he say speak english fluently. But in my opinion, he seems to be struggling very hard to utter the words. He like to repeat the sentences so many times. For eg," PEL is the permissible exposure limits, permissible exposure limits, permissible exposure limits..."

Today lecture is about 'OSHA rules and regulations'. As usual for me, I didn't pay much attention to his lecture again. I have tried my very best to concentrate but his notes n lecture today still can't catch my attention. I just kept talking to wyntse who was sitting on my right...We kept talking till the class ended, but I felt sorry for it. Did't pay much attention to the last lecture. Sigh...Hereby, sorry Professor Coskan.