My 1st Resignation

26th of December 2007, I was anxious and worried. I was going to make an important decision, tendering my resignation for the first time in the 1st company that I’ve worked for a year and seven months. It was the first day of work after my Christmas holiday and my year-end-bonus released day.
To be frank, I was a bit reluctant to tender my resignation letter. I had too many uncertainties to worry.

I had gone through the whole pros-and-cons mind struggling after I had received the offer letter from the new company. This would be the dream job I ever wished to have ever since I graduated. The field that I wished I could be getting into for years, doing the job that I like: design the water treatment and wastewater treatment systems; to be involved in the environmental industry would be one of my ambition.

Congratulations!!!

Really? Congratulations!!!! This was my first sentence to her when I heard the news just at the first day I came back from my Hong Kong trip during Raya Holiday.

23rd of October 2007, it was the day that I got the good news from her. There were times when I always joked on her regarding having baby of her own and finally she brought the good news to me however in her uncertain and worried tone of voice.

She had forbidden me to congratulate her. She was uncertain and worried. I knew why but I’m still very happy for her. The baby is the greatest blessing for her from GOD.

The baby was 1-month old, I guess…..and came of thinking about it, I made her starve to gastric just before the Raya holidays due to a delay of my meeting and I even let her drank the cincau water. I would be in great regrets if anything ever happened.

However, I felt that she would have a long way to go throughout her pregnancy. May GOD bless her always.

Sad.....

Knowing that a friend will be leaving you very soon...it's very very sad...moreover it's someone that you are very close to....Thought that will have at least 2 years time to adapt myself to her leaving and yet she told me her migration process will onliy take 3 to 9 months and need to move to there after that.

Realizing that recently a lot of friends of mine are leaving, in terms of going overseas to work...some went to Singapore, some went to Dubai...However, I know they will still be back. But migration is like forever, knowing that I no longer can sms her or talk to her or at least request her to be my listener to share my sorrows or happiness with at anyime, it's like losing her in a way....

Although it's said that the technology is getting more and more advance, it's like making the world and human communication without any boundary, but for me, distance really makes a lot of differences. The distance will make us busy with our own work, having our space, busy with the issues surrounding us, lacking communication with friends and family......

Recalling that I only knew her for less than a year but it's already like knowing her forever....I wish I could get to know her much earlier because she's really a good friend in terms of being someone who can understand or share the same opinions as you....Knowing her was one of the most beautiful things that ever happened to me in my life and I have no regrets about it.....That's already more than enough.....

Frankly speaking, I don't really hope her to leave but I also understand that she has to face a lot of pressures and difficulties that are unavoidable. However, I do hope she knows what she's doing and hope she found her best way in life.....I hope the best for her....at least that's what I can do for her.....My dear, please take good care of yourself, be happy, bear in mind that you should always have peace in mind and especially your health.......