Myself (Part II)

After writing 'Myself' two years ago, I found that a lot of people started to call me Sailormoon. This irritates me, so I would like to make it clear now: I like Sailormoon but I am not her. Therefore, stop......calling......me......Sailormoon!!!!! 'Myself' Part II is a promise that I made to all of you at the end of Part I, so I think I have to fulfil my promise now as this is my final year in school.

Having gone through a year and a half, I cantell you that a lot of things have changed with me. Some of my characteristics are not the same as before and even my personal view of life is different too. I do not have a stubborn streak anymore. I mentioned in Part I about not apologizing or admitting my mistakes if I felt I was right, but that is an old story. I have learnt to be a girl who even admits a mistake that is not her own fault. I do not know why I have become like this. This is not the 'me' of before. I have found that this way of dealing with others is better. 'Sorry' is not too hard to say, but it definitely strenghens the relationships and friendships as everyone in the world likes to hear humility in the voice of others. So, I am just playing my part part in satisfying their ego. Yet, I must admit I am still a stubborn person in some other ways and tends to hold onto my views about something that i feel strongly about. That, I will not give up.

Before this, I would not have believed things would change like friendships, friends or even my own nature. But since going through all the dilemma of the past years about human relationships and the natures of the human beings in this world that I would not like to mention here, I have started to believe it. Things change and if we try to stop them from doing so, worse will happen. It is better to let them change and no one will get hurt, although we ourselves may have to face a little depression alone. i have also learnt that making friends is not so easy. It is like gambling. A sa friend of mine once told me, you cannot place all your bets in one placebecause it is very dangerous as you only a fifty percent chance of winning. If you lose, you will lose everything. But if you place your bets in different places, you will have more chance to win. This is what making friends is like. You cannot waste your feelings and time on one person as this person may reject you and you will be hurt deeply. But if you make friends with a few person, you will definitely find a best friend. That is what I am doin now and I got a few best friends already. I would like to thank one of my closest friends since primary school for giving this advice to me- Liew Ann Chi.

I really appreciate what I have experienced these paet two years have brought me. I am in a class of 50 people who are co-operative and friendly. i will always remember this class of mine, 5Sc1, for giving me a great challenge in academics. I will not forget all of you.

My hobbies have not changed yet as I still like to read comics, horror stories and science fiction novels, and I still liek Sailormoon although now I have a new favourite cartoon, which is 'Ninja Boys'. I still hope to achieve my dream of travelling around the world in 80 days some day. Besides that, I am still a Sagittarian who believes in the horoscope.

I said before taht I was an optimist and I sttill am. I still agree that we should not torture ourselves as we are in control of our own lives and we should make our existence a happy one. So, everyone should be happy. Stop being uptight and stop pressuring yourselves about the stress that you are facing in your life.

This year I am facing a very important examination, which is the SPM. I would like to wish good luck to those who have supported me by being good friends to me. I wish them all the best and hope they obtain good grades they are hoping for. Among them: Pooi Chin, Hui Kin, Ting Khee, Ann Chi, Mee Yen, Diana, Sook Ping, Li Min, Siew Ling, Wei Jen and Grace Leo. There are so many others-friends, you know who you are and forgive me for not putting your names here as place is limited.

There will not be a 'Myself' Pert III, although I am sure I will go through many changes in my life. But I hope you all will enjoy this conclusion anout me, the one you knew two years ago.

Good luck to all of you.