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It had been quite some time since my last post....about 2 month-time i guess. There were a lot of tension in my life lately. Assignments, final year project, tests, lab work, friendship tension....all the stuffs were messing up my normal life. My final year project entitled: PRODUCTION OF METHYL ESTER. I was so sick of this title. i didn't know what was I doing. I dislike process plant but I was forced to deal with it for the whole year. Oh gosh..!!!Assignments, pushing me to the edge and due date was always the first thing i needed to bear in mind. Had to handle both of these things at one time. Tests, were not my favourite. Sometimes I really think that I have no luck in tests. No matter how hard I study, I still wont score. Maybe that's my luck....need to struggle hard just to get a moderate results. Friendship, my worst part of life. Never imagine myself having such problems. Never manage to be the ideal friend to others. It was really hard to change one's perspection on you. The mind set was strong....once you were wrong, you will always be like that...Once it was said there is no 100 % return on what you have given and I have definitely proven it... Sometimes I really wonder why...but only God knows. The more you struggle to hold on, the more it will slip off from you....I think it's time for me to learn to let it go and time will be the best medicine..I hope one day I will find some friends who are really willing to be my listeners and wont think that I'm using them. Different perspections and definition of friendship were the main cause of the issues....I thought what ever was brought up should be considered as settle, yet it did appear again as an unforgetable issue. Sigh....Starting uni on coming monday....very fed up and sien. Dont wish to go bac uni...Fed up with the work load and life there.Just wish can stay at home forever and really have a piece of my mind.....